Failed Shivas?

Has anyone ever given a slight thought of where are we heading to? What lies after? Is there any energy pulling us to itself & we are chasing it blindly and deafly. Why do some people want to earn so much of money? Why are some people leaving their families behind & leaving behind everything of this material world to become a saint, spending their rest of the life to concentration towards the unknown and ever expanding? Is there anyone who is multiplying exponentially every moment in energy and strength? For if there is anyone who is one, silent, patient, self-resonating, ever expanding and rest are failing. For if others are failed at one stage or other and he is unstoppable, multiplying at every moment. For his strength is defined by the number of ages that have passed. But, why is he expanding? What is this energy generation? If there is constant energy in the universe, which is this generating energy in the form of increasing magnitude coming from? What is getting destroyed in return? 

For Shiva is the reciprocating cycle around Zero? Increasing at this time in form of expanding exponentially like the evolution from Black Hole and at some other time, getting decreased in form of destruction? Is zero the ultimate truth? And what if we are made of this zero? That summing up every matter in universe is zero. That positive energy in one person and negative energy in other person equals in magnitude to make zero. And which causes this reciprocation of energy? What if this positive and negative magnitude equals a non-zero negative or non-zero positive?  And that positive or negative is part of another. And the cycle continues all long with no seen end to infinity. Is Zero and Infinity related?

Who is that ultimate power which runs this? Why is he running this? What energy evoke him to do so? Let him be called Shiva. He is the most balanced, most accurately set, ever uniform but impossible to understand. And we are all failed Shivas that survived some ages. We are his broken and separated part. We are failed Shivas. Are we? And each failed Shiva has a magnitude, of positive and negative values. And negative Shivas are the evils of the society, evils of life, bad habits, pessimism & vice-versa..  

Is zero and infinity converging to Shiva?

Is Shiva some kind of formula, sub formula in a bigger sub formula, and this continues till infinite cycles and hence equal to uncertainty, as the equation is so long that it has not been solved yet but is chased by that ultimate Shiva till infinite cycle. But this equality is tending to zero. So, universe is entangled energy of complex and infinitely long equations?